It's always good to hear success stories like this, which usually involve effort on your part and the willingness to step out of one's comfort zone.
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It's always good to hear success stories like this, which usually involve effort on your part and the willingness to step out of one's comfort zone.
And it just keep getting worse: my mom has gallbladder stones, so she needs surgery. And she looked for volunteer work for me, but of course it was something that wasn’t my cup of tea because it was to greet guests on events and such.
But since also they asked for administrative help, my mom taught that would be my cup of tea. And it was just taking notes on who was absent and who attended, I can't believe I wasted my entire evening on that volunteer gathering only to hear how my mom once again doesn't know what I want, thanks mom
But since also they asked for administrative help, my mom taught that would be my cup of tea. And it was just taking notes on who was absent and who attended, I can't believe I wasted my entire evening on that volunteer gathering only to hear how my mom once again doesn't know what I want, thanks mom
The one who was going to be my new therapist....
I had explained that just at the time I was going to set up my first appointment, I had the abscessed tooth to deal with.
Her exact words:
"Take your time."
I just got back to her and explained about the hospital causing me and my wife to get Covid and what a rough time we have had.
Her response?
"I have a full caseload now and can't take you on as a patient at this time."
I didn't even bother answering that email.
The search will go on.
On a positive note, my wife's cough is much improved and the fever is finally gone. Just hoping she won't have any long-Covid symptoms.
We are very thankful this was not worse than it was.
I had explained that just at the time I was going to set up my first appointment, I had the abscessed tooth to deal with.
Her exact words:
"Take your time."
I just got back to her and explained about the hospital causing me and my wife to get Covid and what a rough time we have had.
Her response?
"I have a full caseload now and can't take you on as a patient at this time."
I didn't even bother answering that email.
The search will go on.
On a positive note, my wife's cough is much improved and the fever is finally gone. Just hoping she won't have any long-Covid symptoms.
We are very thankful this was not worse than it was.
I have reached at least the middle point of the struggle around life and career choices. There is simply nothing to gain by worrying over the past choices that I find regretful or distasteful. As much as I don't like my job I have not given up and still do my best.
My biggest focus is on what I can control over what I can't. I can't control the world around me, or world events but I can do my best to be making my little corner of it better.
It sounds simple but I definitely had to take time to get here.
My biggest focus is on what I can control over what I can't. I can't control the world around me, or world events but I can do my best to be making my little corner of it better.
It sounds simple but I definitely had to take time to get here.
I have never been diagnosed for anything myself but I suffer with pretty major anxiety issues. Anxiety runs deeply in my family and I have had instances where I have nearly vomited from it. It has been pretty bad the past year or so but I think things have been looking up for me, finally.
Glad to hear of a bright side
Just when I was finally becoming relieved that I could secure my medications through the private clinic in Austria (and due to my doctor not fully understanding Hungarian regulations about how much medication you could prescribe on a single slip, I received six separate prescriptions for hormones that would last me until the end of the year), my government has once again found a way to make me start doubting if there's even a point in staying alive anymore.
Long story short, they're banning any public LGBTQ+ related events including Pride marches and protests, they're putting the bill up to a floor vote tomorrow and it will go into effect on Wednesday, any events currently being registered will be banned even if they were announced when they were still legal, and even attending LGBTQ+-related events will carry the standard misdemeanor fines of $20-$500 (in a country where the average monthly income is $1000). The police will be authorized, in blatant violation of EU data protection regulations, to use AI to identify attendees and automatically collect the money from their bank accounts, plus they will be allowed to use riot control on any rally for basically any reason. They've been testing Chinese-made face recognition cameras at protests for the past few months, so my face is probably already in the system, lucky me.
I'm just... I'm so tired. So tired of living in a world that wants me to hide or worse. Tired of constantly seeing the utter malicious glee of vast amounts of people around me at people like me being harassed and oppressed. Tired of being forced underground without being able to do anything about it. Tired of having the recognition of my womanhood depend on the kindness of individual strangers. Tired of high school girls pointing their fingers and laughing at "the damn tr***y freak" on the subway, of grown men yelling at me in broad daylight that my parents should be tortured to death for not having beaten the gay out of me. Tired of having to live in a system you're unable to fight because it cannot be swayed, will never back down and can afford to just crush you like a bug without sparing you a single thought. Tired of constantly having to think about what little islands of freedom I can afford myself where I can still be myself and how long they'll last before they're inevitably taken away from me as well. Tired of constantly having to think about upending my entire life and flee to a foreign country where I don't speak the language and I'm completely alone, to sustain myself with whatever menial jobs are available because I have no marketable skills and no social safety net. And with most European countries being a single election away from electing a far-right, anti-immigrant and anti-LGBTQ+ government, there's no place on this damn ball of mud where I could be safe for long without having to pack everything up and flee again, or eventually having to go back to the closet for my safety, forever having to pretend to be a man that I never was.
My only hope is that reincarnation is real and maybe I can get reborn into a world that doesn't hate me for who I am. Because I just can't see it getting better in our lifetimes. Even in Star Trek, the world needed to be cleansed in nuclear hellfire until we learned our lesson. And I'm starting to doubt whether we would learn it in the real world. In 23 years of being a fan, I've come from seeing Star Trek as a hopeful template for a positive future to full-blown unrealistic escapism that is in complete opposition to the very core of how human nature works.
Long story short, they're banning any public LGBTQ+ related events including Pride marches and protests, they're putting the bill up to a floor vote tomorrow and it will go into effect on Wednesday, any events currently being registered will be banned even if they were announced when they were still legal, and even attending LGBTQ+-related events will carry the standard misdemeanor fines of $20-$500 (in a country where the average monthly income is $1000). The police will be authorized, in blatant violation of EU data protection regulations, to use AI to identify attendees and automatically collect the money from their bank accounts, plus they will be allowed to use riot control on any rally for basically any reason. They've been testing Chinese-made face recognition cameras at protests for the past few months, so my face is probably already in the system, lucky me.
I'm just... I'm so tired. So tired of living in a world that wants me to hide or worse. Tired of constantly seeing the utter malicious glee of vast amounts of people around me at people like me being harassed and oppressed. Tired of being forced underground without being able to do anything about it. Tired of having the recognition of my womanhood depend on the kindness of individual strangers. Tired of high school girls pointing their fingers and laughing at "the damn tr***y freak" on the subway, of grown men yelling at me in broad daylight that my parents should be tortured to death for not having beaten the gay out of me. Tired of having to live in a system you're unable to fight because it cannot be swayed, will never back down and can afford to just crush you like a bug without sparing you a single thought. Tired of constantly having to think about what little islands of freedom I can afford myself where I can still be myself and how long they'll last before they're inevitably taken away from me as well. Tired of constantly having to think about upending my entire life and flee to a foreign country where I don't speak the language and I'm completely alone, to sustain myself with whatever menial jobs are available because I have no marketable skills and no social safety net. And with most European countries being a single election away from electing a far-right, anti-immigrant and anti-LGBTQ+ government, there's no place on this damn ball of mud where I could be safe for long without having to pack everything up and flee again, or eventually having to go back to the closet for my safety, forever having to pretend to be a man that I never was.
My only hope is that reincarnation is real and maybe I can get reborn into a world that doesn't hate me for who I am. Because I just can't see it getting better in our lifetimes. Even in Star Trek, the world needed to be cleansed in nuclear hellfire until we learned our lesson. And I'm starting to doubt whether we would learn it in the real world. In 23 years of being a fan, I've come from seeing Star Trek as a hopeful template for a positive future to full-blown unrealistic escapism that is in complete opposition to the very core of how human nature works.
My gods, I had no idea it had gotten so bad there. I wish I had good advice for you, but all I have is my love. *HUGS*
Wow, @SJGardner , I have no idea what to say, other than I'm so sorry all this is happening. 
I read about that on my newspaper, I'm so sorry for you! *hugs*
I disagree. My mental health problems started in my teens and my life probably would've been better with drugs. Also, I know a transgender kid with mental health issues and medications probably saved his life.
a kid in my school is fucking dead
I can understand your point, but should kids be exposed to more addictive stuff as a young like xanax?
Oh kiddo, I'm so sorry!
I don't know, I'm not a medical professional. It probably needs to be determined on a case-by-case basis.
With the right observation and (maybe) parental control over the meds to limit their access just in case then I see no problem.
It also depends on the readiness of Doctors to prescribe - in the US where there is (as far as I understand it) more of a customer relationship where, to an extent, you tell your Doctor what meds you want and they write it up then it needs very strong regulation to lower the risk of addiction
In the UK, where I'm from, there is far stricter control and limitation throughout any course of medication and from my experience more of a "here is the smallest viable dose - try this for 3 months then we'll talk" so it is far safer
@SJGardner I've seen some of the reports on that damned law. You and everyone else targeted by this toxic waste masquerading as just law deserve a lot better than this. All of Hungary deserves better.
Has anyone been affected by someone else's behavior or attitude, although it's not necessarily directed toward you?
I've been feeling like this lately about my roommate, a.k.a. brother, and what I perceive to be toxic behavior. It seems like every time he gets home from work, he's banging around in the kitchen and cussing to himself. I dare not ask what's wrong, since he's going to quickly deny there's any problem. What's with the temper tantrums, bro?
One time, I actually mirrored his behavior and started slamming the pots and pans and throwing things in the kitchen too.
I realize this is not the right approach.
I hear obsidian eliminates negative energy, so I've worn an obsidian pendant at home. Next, I'm going to get a smudge kit.
I've been feeling like this lately about my roommate, a.k.a. brother, and what I perceive to be toxic behavior. It seems like every time he gets home from work, he's banging around in the kitchen and cussing to himself. I dare not ask what's wrong, since he's going to quickly deny there's any problem. What's with the temper tantrums, bro?
One time, I actually mirrored his behavior and started slamming the pots and pans and throwing things in the kitchen too.
I realize this is not the right approach.I hear obsidian eliminates negative energy, so I've worn an obsidian pendant at home. Next, I'm going to get a smudge kit.
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