I think it’s pushed me into an autistic burnout situation. I think I’ve been in that to some degree for some time.
I also had some bad news this week: my father nearly choked to death, I visited him today in the hospital. By coincidence, my nephew was there as well. He told me my father will be undergoing a series of tests to see if he has dementia, and that he will be going to a facility to get the proper care. On one hand I'm glad they will finally run some tests, me and my mom have been saying that for years that he might have dementia. On the other hand, if it's confirmed he has dementia, I don't think I will be able to cope with him slowly forgetting everything and everyone he knows. But I'm also worried about the facility, my mother and I don't have a driving license. So we've been using public transport this time to take him to the cinema and such. I hope it will be somewhere with public transport, otherwise can only take him to the cafeteria and no further
Guys, it’s okay to be scared. And Fantasy Lover, I’ve lived the nightmare of losing someone that way, and it is hell…
I was turned down for the job I interviewed for last week. So I think I might be down to my last resort which is one of the grocery stores or department stores near where I live.
Sorry you were unsuccessful but don’t be disheartened because job interviews are like auditions and it’s all good experience. Send them an email along the lines of ‘thank-you for the opportunity and I wish you every success for the future’. They’ll remember you for being philosophical about not getting the job and it leaves the door open for when they are next recruiting.
*sorry guys but vent incoming, just need somewhere to put this* Background information: So, I'm quite a girly person; I like clothes, makeup, and finding cute new hairstyles and I like to feel pretty by dressing "nice". It makes me feel like I'm masking my autism better and makes me less preoccupied with social situations since I feel like I look "normal" in a nice way. Idk its important to me. My outfits are never really revealing or anything, just kind of girly. The actual thing that's upsetting me: I am sure other people experience the same thing, when you feel happy with your appearance, you feel pretty, and you go out and then you get *that* stare/look from people (usually grown men) (even just one) and you just feel dirty, slightly dehumanised, and sick of yourself even though you haven't done anything. It just ruins my whole mood for the day and I feel ashamed even though I'm just THERE. Like I'm just sitting on the bus or something and i get *that* look and immediately I just want to be anywhere else because I feel dirty when all I'm doing is sitting listening to music or something. I just happen to be in a skirt some bullshit. (I'm not talking about any look from a guy, its something specific that's palpably uncomfortable).
Those places won't even interview me. At least, I have my part time job, but I really need a full time job.